1/31/2007

the story is all questions

people say im smart, but then they dont listen when i tell them im not. therefore they must believe that although i am smart, they are smarter. so from now on, when someone calls me smart, i will respond with, oh yeah! well, youre smarter!

these are my new phrases, stuck in my head for no particular reason:
seeking heat by hell was in my head
we are all of us, far too caught up in the details.
quarantined mind.
quietly confident
i am tempted to accuse you of the most vile things.
things are always better in conflict.
a noisy venture.
theres something phony about this.
is it now?
can you see? its beautiful.

if a man says he is lying, is what he says true or false? i think lying doesnt imply false, it implies not true. (not true)≠false, which is the basic assumption in boolean logic i guess. but outside of boolean logic, in real life, i think it could mean something different. could we merge probability with logic? instead of making it boolean...

these are from futurama:
dont tell no one. spread the word.
extremely inappropriate banter.
some say im robbing the craddle, but i think shes robbing the grave.
you gotta try the pasta. its got a real nice profit margin.

hey, look on the bright side, you dont look creepy when you smile, so youve got that going for you.

compliment:
an expression of praise, congratulation or encouragement
a misspelling for complement, meaning something which makes the original object complete.

if i wrote you a note in every fold would you promise not to peek? (peak!)
with eight folds of play, reading one every day, could you wait the entire week?

in my spare time i write love notes to strangers and hide them in novel places.

when i was little, and my parents left for a party or something, and said they would be back by some certain time, id get worried when if they didnt get back at that time. although i knew it was worrying, so i quelled it (to use a word not normally in my vocabulary). but still, in the back of my mind, i would start to wonder, what if they were in an accident or something, and got injured, or killed? how would i react? what would happen to my family?

also, when i laid in bed at night, i got very jealous hearing my mom laugh at television shows. it made me feel like i was missing something fun. even now, when i hear people in a nearby room having a lot of fun, i get a somewhat excluded feeling.

i dont know how to abandon the visual aspect of life. thats probably where my embarrassing desire to be blind comes from.
i want to try sculpting something, (maybe clay?) while blindfolded.

i quit drinking, but that meant i had to quit sleeping. and if im not sleeping, well fuck it! who needs to eat?? and since eating sleeping and drinking took up a lot of time, now that ive quit them i can dedicate more time to hallucinating. although i have never enjoyed being alone with my thoughts.

the consensus among those who consider this a disorder is that the threshold is met when the behavior causes distress or impaired social functioning.

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