i ought to maintain this list better,
things to do before i die:
slap multiple (3 or more) people with one swing.
kill a man, (or would child be funnier?).
avoid trial
inoperable?
inoperable patience
inoperable ____
everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
i wish that when i was a kid i had met someone like me. then i would have been much better at these things i enjoy; ive only really discovered most of them at a much older age than necessary.
maybe put this in equals signs: we both learned to hide it.
lean
your
head back
try
and
relax
hold on
hold on
so uh... are you the brains of the outfit or is he?
to be honest with you, i dont think this is a brains sort of operation.
spare me your space-aged technobabel attila the hun!
inspire revolutionaries.
all things grow.
all things grow moldy.
detect defect.
what did you want to be when you grew up?
really good:
wherever one finds oneself inclined to bitterness, it is a sign of emotional failure: a larger heart, and a greater self-restraint, would put a calm autumnal sadness in the place of the instinctive outcry of pain.
-Bertrand Russell
mister Russell helping me tolerate my job more? weird.
can all motion be written in terms of straight lines and circular arcs?
i prefer to burn my bridges before i cross them, thus making them more thrilling to cross.
8/08/2007
8/01/2007
i just want now to stop.
could we somehow apply the limit process to the differintegral processes?
for instance, what happens when you repeatedly differentiate something? does it converge or diverge to some thing? or perhaps cycles periodically between a number of different functions? actually, i guess ive asked this before, when i took complex variables. and we differentiated certain functions that repeated every 4th derivative or something.
you have the blame. you halve the blame. ill take the blame. or we could halve it. go dutch on the blame.
we are all to blame for everything. does anyone feel this way? or am i alone.
thanks, for leaving, the light on, so i, could find, my way home. thanks, for meeting, me half way, from the curb, to, the doorway. this skin is meant to be lived in, so why do i want out? why do i love to see you? see you scream out.
activate the slave settings.
she loves his boyish charms, but she hates his childish antics.
i wrote them a poem:
they label me benign
but intelligence is malignant
a wolf in sheeps clothing.
it would be a haiku but i think its one extra syllable each. though now that i look at the definition of haiku, its no longer clear if the 5/7/5 syllable idea is correct or not. maybe it qualifies. i dont know. i dont care really.
"im filled with a large number of powerful emotions."
my word! you do tickle me!
are you haunted? you want to get un-haunted? well, i'd kill him.
which of the following would you most prefer: a. a puppy b. a pretty flower from your sweetie or c. a large properly formatted data file?
todays words: inimical, malign, benign, malefic
what happens when we all realize that everyone is uniquely interesting? how then will anything get done? maybe, probably, by then, Koza's machines will have displaced us.
isnt it interesting how what makes a person an individual is the way they change, rather than the individual states they take on?
just like physics is really about the rate of change instead of absolutes like position and time.
so now i need to invent calculus for personalities. or calculus for... something.
im struggling quite a bit to figure out whats wrong with drugs... can anyone help me? its probably a good thing to understand. though if i cant figure out what 'right' and 'wrong' mean in anything resembling absolute terms, then i suppose i must settle for relative reasons for the 'rightness' and 'wrongness' of drugs. which i suppose i can easily define/find. Einstein said (allegedly): things should be as simple as they are, but no simpler. i increasingly feel as if most humans have these ideas twisted in modern life: that which is simple is made complex, and that which is complex is made unreasonably simple. i would cite most 'hot button' poltical issues as evidence of this.
shes tachycardia for sure.
i think a plan is just a list of things that dont happen.
im realizing that i cant tell the difference between people who like me and people who are just being nice. really, the only people i would expect this to matter with are attractive young girls, but i suppose since i cant tell the difference, potentially anyone who is nice to me might really like me. that could be fun. creepy old guys. old ladies.
shes a dime. but that is obvious.
also, yes, i know i make very little/no sense, but no one else makes much sense to me either. its weird how special relativity seems to make a lot of sense, and inverse square laws. mathematics. but the 6+ billion people on the planet remain largely a mystery. misstery? misstressy.
do you wonder?
do you wonder.
for instance, what happens when you repeatedly differentiate something? does it converge or diverge to some thing? or perhaps cycles periodically between a number of different functions? actually, i guess ive asked this before, when i took complex variables. and we differentiated certain functions that repeated every 4th derivative or something.
you have the blame. you halve the blame. ill take the blame. or we could halve it. go dutch on the blame.
we are all to blame for everything. does anyone feel this way? or am i alone.
thanks, for leaving, the light on, so i, could find, my way home. thanks, for meeting, me half way, from the curb, to, the doorway. this skin is meant to be lived in, so why do i want out? why do i love to see you? see you scream out.
activate the slave settings.
she loves his boyish charms, but she hates his childish antics.
i wrote them a poem:
they label me benign
but intelligence is malignant
a wolf in sheeps clothing.
it would be a haiku but i think its one extra syllable each. though now that i look at the definition of haiku, its no longer clear if the 5/7/5 syllable idea is correct or not. maybe it qualifies. i dont know. i dont care really.
"im filled with a large number of powerful emotions."
my word! you do tickle me!
are you haunted? you want to get un-haunted? well, i'd kill him.
which of the following would you most prefer: a. a puppy b. a pretty flower from your sweetie or c. a large properly formatted data file?
todays words: inimical, malign, benign, malefic
what happens when we all realize that everyone is uniquely interesting? how then will anything get done? maybe, probably, by then, Koza's machines will have displaced us.
isnt it interesting how what makes a person an individual is the way they change, rather than the individual states they take on?
just like physics is really about the rate of change instead of absolutes like position and time.
so now i need to invent calculus for personalities. or calculus for... something.
im struggling quite a bit to figure out whats wrong with drugs... can anyone help me? its probably a good thing to understand. though if i cant figure out what 'right' and 'wrong' mean in anything resembling absolute terms, then i suppose i must settle for relative reasons for the 'rightness' and 'wrongness' of drugs. which i suppose i can easily define/find. Einstein said (allegedly): things should be as simple as they are, but no simpler. i increasingly feel as if most humans have these ideas twisted in modern life: that which is simple is made complex, and that which is complex is made unreasonably simple. i would cite most 'hot button' poltical issues as evidence of this.
shes tachycardia for sure.
i think a plan is just a list of things that dont happen.
im realizing that i cant tell the difference between people who like me and people who are just being nice. really, the only people i would expect this to matter with are attractive young girls, but i suppose since i cant tell the difference, potentially anyone who is nice to me might really like me. that could be fun. creepy old guys. old ladies.
shes a dime. but that is obvious.
also, yes, i know i make very little/no sense, but no one else makes much sense to me either. its weird how special relativity seems to make a lot of sense, and inverse square laws. mathematics. but the 6+ billion people on the planet remain largely a mystery. misstery? misstressy.
do you wonder?
do you wonder.
7/24/2007
i never saw anything before
if god dictates morals, then he (it) is not interested in people being 'truly good' so much as just deterring them from behaving 'inappropriately' (arbitrarily defined by god).
in which case, i would consider god to be an asshole, and also amoral.
also, assuming god exists and is omnipotent, i have a game which he cannot win. any measly human such as myself can win 100% of the time, which is an indication to me that the conventional sense of omnipotence is beyond any realizable universe.
this only happens when your eyes are closed.
i think a very large part of life is trying to figure out what 'right' and 'wrong' mean, and then coming to terms with the fact that they only having meaning within the context of certain synthetic priorities; that they are completely arbitrary and self-generated, self-imposed.
gun down.
you only like me for my frown.
in all of the years that i have been internally philosophizing about the world, there has been a constant underlying dilemma concerning the origin and validity of certainty. and though i had a very clear direction when i first wrote that sentence, i am not so certain anymore, (and thus this reflects the state of the matter).
kill faster
honk if you hate people that honk at everything.
"everything will be all right in the end."
you flew around like a butterfly.
we only do this for the company.
it becomes the solution to any problem.
be wary of any universal solutions, they are probably incomplete.
im trying to figure out what the fractional derivative of ex will be. ooh, weird:"In short, differentiating and then integrating the derivative from 0 to x does not (in general) return us to the same function ; this reversal only holds if we integrate first." from here.
i never saw anything before
in which case, i would consider god to be an asshole, and also amoral.
also, assuming god exists and is omnipotent, i have a game which he cannot win. any measly human such as myself can win 100% of the time, which is an indication to me that the conventional sense of omnipotence is beyond any realizable universe.
this only happens when your eyes are closed.
i think a very large part of life is trying to figure out what 'right' and 'wrong' mean, and then coming to terms with the fact that they only having meaning within the context of certain synthetic priorities; that they are completely arbitrary and self-generated, self-imposed.
gun down.
you only like me for my frown.
in all of the years that i have been internally philosophizing about the world, there has been a constant underlying dilemma concerning the origin and validity of certainty. and though i had a very clear direction when i first wrote that sentence, i am not so certain anymore, (and thus this reflects the state of the matter).
kill faster
honk if you hate people that honk at everything.
"everything will be all right in the end."
you flew around like a butterfly.
we only do this for the company.
it becomes the solution to any problem.
be wary of any universal solutions, they are probably incomplete.
im trying to figure out what the fractional derivative of ex will be. ooh, weird:"In short, differentiating and then integrating the derivative from 0 to x does not (in general) return us to the same function ; this reversal only holds if we integrate first." from here.
i never saw anything before
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