Some Hearts are True

11·24·08
I might have mentioned this before, but on occasion people who know me very well will say something akin to 'that's very unlike you'. I understand what they mean, but my natural reaction is to reject that anything is 'like me', which has led me to an idea. I seem to be attracted to girls who are very visibly defiant of the status quo. I am fairly certain that if you asked people, (including myself usually), I would not be described as defiant, though I might be described as 'hard to tell'. What I am finding an interesting idea is that mentally I seem fairly defiant (though not in the same way that some people I would have described that way, such as some close friends). I guess I would describe my mental defiance as carrying a direction, as opposed to defiance for the sake of defying. It should be said that defiance has a utility all on it's own. NO! Dammit! I sound like one of those people who view utility as the only metric. Happiness is my measure; the only sensible measure I've found yet.

"Germs are just a plot they made up so they can sell you disinfectants, and soaps."
"The future can be yours! Last chance! Last chance! LAST! CHANCE!"
Lost to history.

If I have a set of elements of given sizes, and I look at the size of each subset by summing up the sizes of the elements of the subset, how many different orderings are there (from least to greatest) given an arbitrary set? I'm not being clear. Maybe I'll get it some day.

Some hearts are true.
With strong hearts, and swung hips.
Our dreams, deserve it.

Another question, how would we differentiate the CMB radiation from a source of random noise coupled to the universe? (Just ignore the obvious violation of energy conversation for the moment.)

Dr. David Berlinski, professor of mathematics, said, "mathematical physics lacks all the rigor of mathematics". I am disappointed that such an experienced researcher can make such a mistake. OF COURSE mathematics is more rigorous than anything else! In mathematics you know EXACTLY what the rules are, because YOU make them up! YOU define the axioms you work with, and you see what follows. NO EMPIRICAL SCIENCE will EVER have access to the axioms! I'm ANGRY! Oh well.

I have the patience of a tibetan monk with a morphine drip.
I spend a lot of time trying to make my life into a joke because it's funnier that way.


11·25·08
Brisance is a measure of the rapidity with which an explosive develops its maximum pressure.


11·26·08
I'm pretty sure I know the sentiment.


http://twistedphysics.typepad.com/cocktail_party_physics/2008/11/heads-will-blog.html
http://blogs.discovery.com/twisted_physics/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Garamond
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mathematical_intuitionism
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oracle_machine
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spectral_theorem
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spectral_theory
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operator_theory
http://osxbook.com/book/bonus/chapter10/sms/
http://recursed.blogspot.com/2008/11/three-bloggers.html
http://www.gladwell.com/outliers/outliers_excerpt1.html
http://terrytao.wordpress.com/2007/03/18/why-global-regularity-for-navier-stokes-is-hard/
http://www.christianitytoday.com/movies/interviews/benstein.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Godwin%27s_law
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/From_Darwin_to_Hitler#From_Darwin_to_Hitler
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Berlinski
http://holysmoke.org/icr-pri.htm
Promise to be kind.
http://www.last.fm/music/Laura+Veirs find
http://www.last.fm/music/Gregory+and+the+Hawk
http://www.last.fm/music/Mono

Useful parameterization of ignorance.
Virulent is a beautiful word.

Such a colorful mess.

I don't understand people who say they are willing to die for their beliefs. Beliefs should never be worth dying for. Moral principles, sure, ethical convictions, sure, you're abilities to remain free? Sure. I don't think I would die for any of those things, since after dying I would be unable to reap the benefits, and further, I could always survive inside my own head, it's something that would be difficult to take away from me. That said, if it were taken away, I'd be close enough to dead that I don't think it'd make much of a difference. So there isn't anything I personally find truly 'worth dying for', but I can imagine being pushed to the point that I would no longer consider myself alive, so I suppose if the threat was that I had a risk of ending up at that point, then it would be worth dying for. I can almost imagine dying for a loved one, especially offspring, probably mostly genetic, though even adopted makes some sense. In either case, it is hard to say what I would do. I think the largest hurdle to dying for something is the inability to assure that the other side of the bargain is paid in full after my death. So dying for offspring, adopted or otherwise, how can I be sure that my death truly guarantees their life? (Or whatever.) Without that, it's pretty hard to commit. It just seems unproductive, thats all. I guess if we had some sort of horrible trap set up, that was going to destroy them with near certainty, unless I destroyed myself with near certainty, in which case, I guess, not a problem, I'd go for it.

You'd say...

"thrown forever into the trash can and replaced with a normative system that is compassionate and congruent with the needs and natures of human beings."



12·1·08



I choose my words with great care in effort to convey to you the seriousness with which I approach. I mean nothing but the best.
What a tragedy it'd be if you and me weren't happy.